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Thursday, October 11, 2007

Her light eyes were dancing, she is insane.

After my recent onslaught of insanity dreams, I started hearing weird voices. Mostly the voices of characters in my dreams. As this was getting out of control, I went and saw a psychiatrist yesterday.

Psychiatrist sits me down and starts asking all kinds of questions about my childhood, parents, drugs, birth injuries and flah flah flah. I answer. Whatever, none of it's news anymore. Towards the end of the session, we finally get to the dreams. I give Psychiatrist some examples of the dreams, and she sits back in her chair and says "wow" a lot. I told her about one dream and she said she had never heard of such things before... That was weird. How long did this chick go to school?

I got a diagnonsense.

Mild schizophrenia.

I'm supposed to take anti-psychotics.

I don't want to.

I knew I was a little off, but never thought I was, like, crazy crazy.

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10 Comments:

  • Time for a second opinion!

    By Blogger Crazy East Coast Uncle, at 2:48 AM  

  • Yeah, I agree. Definitely time for a second opinion.

    I'd also say go to the library and check out The Center Cannot Hold by Elyn Saks, about her experiences.

    By Anonymous Anonymous, at 9:30 AM  

  • Maybe she has heard of this before but by saying she hadn't it makes you feel more special and unique? Some sort of weird therapy angle. Maybe it makes you a little less crazy then? Dunno...I have strange theories on things.

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    By Anonymous Arbusto, at 6:50 AM  

  • What?? With the disclaimer that I'm not a licensed psychologist or psychiatrist, I don't think that strange dreams are enough to diagnose mild schizophrenia. Several symptoms/symptom clusters need to be present for a certain time period in order to support that diagnosis.

    I would say get a second opinion. Either there's more you haven't told us on the blog, or this psychiatrist is the one who's nuts.

    By Blogger SouthernCanadian, at 2:17 PM  

  • SoCan (and others) - thanks for the skepticism. It's well-placed.

    There is more. I also experience regular auditory and (somtimes) visual hallucinations. While I've had strange dreams during different periods throughout my life, they've never been like this. As for the hallucinations,Ive had auditories before, but not visuals (except on drugs ;) I would say this past two months consitutes the first "cluster" for sure. I did mention the timing thing to the Doc, and she told me that the average age of onset for females is around 30-ish, which, much to my sadness, I'm pushing. I'm not sure myself if I buy the label I got, I tend to think the psych issues are related to the other medications I'm on. I'm hopeful that after surgery, when I come off the meds, the symptoms will go away. I mentioned this to the Doc, and she thinks the two aren't related - which makes zero sense to me. I think you have a solid point, it did seem like the Doc was diagnosis-jumping (hence the "diagnonsense" term I used).

    I'm not taking the anti-psychotic meds. I took them the first night and they made me feel like I was gonna jump out of my skin. The main thing I'm doing to handle right now is to make sure I'm not alone. My Mother-in-Law is here a lot, and that helps soooo much. Fiance takes showers with me, because I noticed that i hear things a whole lot in the shower. It's a waiting game; I'm doing everything I can to hold it together until surgery. T-minus nine days!!!!

    By Blogger Lex Fori, at 9:54 PM  

  • I think the counselor that you saw is incompetent. To make a diagnis like that on a 1 hour session is ridiculous. That's not to say you don't have something going on like soome kind of psycosis going on created by the medication and stress that you have been under. At any rate coming from someone who has suffered with the same symptoms all of what you are experiencing is enough to make you feel crazy, I know I did. So hang on to what yoou know to be true, shower with fiance and enjoy your time with me.

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    By Blogger Arbusto, at 1:52 PM  

  • That's not insanity. Your just very created or we can also say that its your way of thinking! that's your second self saying things. dreams are your subconscious.

    By Anonymous janine, at 3:03 PM  

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